Some nights, after finally settling Lily into her crib, I sit alone at my kitchen table staring at bills spread before me, wondering how I’ll get through another month. But then Lily stirs, making those soft baby sounds, opening her big, curious eyes. In those moments, my heart reminds me why I keep going. She lost her mother before she could ever know her. Her father abandoned her before she was even a week old. She deserves at least one person in this world who will never walk away from her.
I managed to scrape together enough for a budget airline ticket. It wasn’t much, and the seats were cramped, but it would get me there. That’s how I found myself boarding a packed plane with a heavy diaper bag over my shoulder and Lily cradled against my chest, praying for a few quiet hours in the air.

As soon as we settled into our narrow economy seats near the back, Lily began to fuss. At first, it was a soft whimper, but within minutes it grew into full-blown crying. I tried everything I could think of. I rocked her, whispering, “Shh, Lily, it’s okay, Grandma’s here.” I offered her a bottle I had prepared before boarding, but she pushed it away. I awkwardly checked her diaper, trying to maneuver in the tight space, but nothing helped.
Her cries grew louder, echoing through the cramped cabin. I felt heat rising to my cheeks as heads turned. The woman in front of me sighed loudly and shook her head. A man two rows ahead glanced back, glaring at me like I was deliberately ruining his flight. My hands trembled as I bounced Lily, humming a lullaby my daughter had loved as a child. I prayed it would calm her, but the crying only got worse. The air was thick with judgment. Every wail made me sink deeper into my seat, wishing I could disappear. I held Lily tight, kissing her head, whispering, “Please stop crying, baby. We’ll be okay. Just calm down for Grandma.” But she kept crying.Continue reading…