Every time, I responded, “No. Just me.” But what I never shared was the true cost of that answer — the countless nights I cried myself to sleep, the baby showers I attended with a fake smile while my heart quietly broke a little more inside. I am 48 now, and while I have made peace with being alone — or at least learned how to pretend I have — I still wonder why it hurts so much every time someone asks about my life. When I was younger, I imagined a very different life for myself. I pictured noisy Saturday mornings with pancakes burning on the stove, tiny socks disappearing mysteriously in the laundry, crayon drawings covering the refrigerator, and a house filled with chaos, laughter, and unconditional love. But then the doctors delivered a devastating truth: my body would never be able to carry a child.
